ramblings – Notes & Codes

Happy 1-year in College to Me!

Posted on August 26, 2020 by Andrea Gonzales

Time flew so fast! Before I knew it, it’s already August (and blimey, it’s almost September). I didn’t realize that I’ve been a college student for almost a year already. It seemed like yesterday when I’m frightened and sick with nervousness after I finished my Junior High School (and ultimately, my home-schooling journey), realizing that I will soon be stepping into what most people call “normal schooling”.

Looking back now, I just want to laugh at myself.

Flashback to A Year Ago…

“I don’t think I can do it. I’ve never been or studied to an actual school building ever since I was in Grade 2, let alone studying in a huge college building. I don’t think that I will ever be able to handle the lessons, plus the assignments, and I’m going to fail my tests and exams.”

These are the thoughts that plagued my mind as the day of my college orientation gets near. Sure, this is one of the first steps that I need to take to reach my goal in becoming a fully-fledged software engineer slash ethical hacker, and sure, there will be more opportunities for me out there (as my mom frequently says). But STILL, I feel like I’m going to fail on my first semester. I’m a newbie in “normal schooling” and I won’t be able to handle the pressure of college life.

Hey there, my would be school. Image Source: https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Cmglee_Inti_College_Penang.jpg

My mom always told me that I can do it, that I am well prepared for this and that she believes in me. It’s nice to hear that somebody believes in you, that somebody thinks that you can get through. It lightens your load, even if just a bit. But the problem is, I don’t believe it. Maybe I do, somehow, but as the days go by, I doubt myself more and more. In short, my biggest doubter is myself (and I’m trying to fix it).

Of course, in times like this, I know that I must prepare. With the remaining weeks before my college orientation comes, I started reading up some of the books that I think will be covered up on my first semester. I know that I don’t have much time, but at least I can get a grasped on what is to come. Somehow, it gives me a bit of confidence.

On the night of the orientation, I couldn’t sleep. I must admit it, but I was feeling both sick with nervousness and (surprisingly) excitement. Nervous, because I still think that I can’t do it, and excited, because it’s really happening! I’m finally going to study the things I want to study, and no more biology, chemistry, and the sewing lessons from Junior High School. I feel that this is going to be fun.

After Orientation and Beyond

My college orientation wasn’t so bad as I expected. I had vivid imaginations that I will be given a test once I step inside the campus, but all they did was welcome us, gave some opening speeches, and tour us on the campus. I took down some notes, especially during the campus tour. I don’t want to get lost on my first day.

I went back home feeling sort of elated as I got through the day without getting lost or making a blunder talking to people. To prepare myself for my first class, I printed out a map of INTI’s campus, plus my timetable, and signed-up for the school van that drops by on my place. Everything seemed to be in order now.

Still I couldn’t sleep. I await and dread tomorrow’s first day of school.

I was still uncertain on what time the school van arrives (even though I asked a couple of people during the orientation). It says on their poster that it arrives at 7:00AM at my place, so I woke up at 6:00AM, and went down to the bus stop at 6:30AM, where I waited for my van. Little did I know that my van will arrive at about 7:30AM…

I just can get too jumpy sometimes.

Alright, most of the time.

Once I arrived at the campus, I was just in time for the lecture. It wasn’t so bad as I expected as well; In fact, I started to relax after my first lesson. It did take me some time to look for my respective classrooms. Thank goodness I’m not late on my lessons.

I also met new people on my first day: Shan (whom I got acquainted in during the orientation) and Sara. Admittedly, I never knew that we would stick together for most of our group assignments, helping and learning from each other. I guess being one of the few girls in the class is one major role that made us more comfortable and closer with each other. I’m glad I met them, it made college life more fun and less stressful.

And so, for the next couple of weeks, I officially started my college lessons. I found that my favourite subjects include: Program Logic Formulation, Introduction to Internet Technologies, and Database Management. There are fun and stressful moments (mostly because I overthink stuffs), but I learned a lot on my first Semester.

It wasn’t that hard than I expect it would be, to be honest 😉

Ending Notes

I celebrated my 1st-year-in-college anniversary by studying for my 4th Semester. Sadly, I only got to step on campus on my 1st and 2nd Semester, as the pandemic forced us all to conduct our lessons online. I am more used, I guess, in this kind of studying (being home-schooled and all), but it does limit our person to person interaction (which is much needed on group assignments). Although I’m still alright with online classes, I do hope that I get to come back to campus before my college life is done.

I still have another year to go to before I finish college and step up into University. Aside from the lessons, college taught me that I don’t have to do everything alone. I was used to studying by myself, doing my own assignments as I don’t have classmates. But in college, my classmates are also my allies; We help each other out in group assignments and share important resources in our group chat. We also learn from each other, and we fairly get along. I realized that, although I learn best on my own, there are more things to learn from other people.

Once again, happy 1-year in college to me! 🥳

Competitions, Programming, ramblings

Wrapping Up Google Code-In 2019

Posted on August 17, 2020August 17, 2020 by Andrea Gonzales

At last, exams are over! Now I have at least a week before my school starts sending out our overall results (and see how “well” we did for this semester). Hopefully I won’t be retaking any subjects.

Anyhow…I finally received all the promised packages of alternative prizes from Google (about time). On my previous post last 4 months ago, after my supposed trip to Google got cancelled because of the virus, Google then arranged to give the winners alternative prizes instead, which include cash and swags. And so, after months of waiting, all the long-awaited packages are finally here at my doorstep, fresh from America.

The “Alternative” for the Trip

Ever since the winners received the cancellation email, Google informed us that they will be sending out alternative prizes instead. I guess this temporarily pacified our broken hearts, as we wait in anticipation what those prizes could be. When I did receive the details of the alternative prize, I must say that I had a so-so feeling about it. It’s not bad, but it doesn’t really replace the lost trip (I mean, what would?). It did, however, gave me another thing to look forward to, plus, in an attempt to cheer myself up, I made myself think that not all 17-year olds receive this kind of stuffs, especially in a time like this.

And so, from April till August, are the packages delivery months. This was my “please-don’t-get-my-package-lost-it’s-all-I-have-now” kind of phase.

Coronavirus played another part in delivering the packages (obviously). It’s the reason why it took months to deliver the items, and why I’m referring to “packages” (plural), and not “package” (singular). The packages (three in all), are delivered separately as there was some problems with delivery here and there. Also, we were supposed to be given a new phone as one of the alternative prizes, but since there is a very high possibility that it will not be delivered as planned, they decided to exchange it with the phone’s money value instead. Oh well, I guess what can go wrong, will go wrong.

Way to go, Coronavirus.

Although I like all the swags delivered, my favourites are the thermos, fleece and trophy. My old water bottle is getting its paint chipped off, and it’s about time I have my own thermos. Meanwhile, the fleece is so comfy for wear! I would wear it at home if it weren’t this hot. I guess I’ll just use it for school during long hours of lecture in a freezing classroom.

Lastly, the trophy! It’s my first time having a trophy instead of the usual certificate or rusting medals. The first time the trophy was displayed, I often stare back at it, just to observe it (and probably reminisce the past days on how I earned it).

Googler Speaker Sessions: Another Alternative Prize

Aside from the alternative prizes, we were also given a two-day virtual seminar from Googlers. The topics for the talk include open source, internship, augmented reality, Android, and more. Although I have to stay awake from 11pm to 3am because of time zones, the talks had been interesting, with internship, augmented reality and TensorFlow being my favourite.

Google Code-In Winners’ Virtual Seminar Opening

Google Code-In 2019 Statistics. This was the highest number of participants compared to previous years

On the actual trip, we were supposed to have a “day at Google” as part of our agenda, where we get to listen to Googler’s work experience and what other opportunities we can get. I guess this is the only part of the trip that they can recreate.

The talk had been fun, as aside from it being aligned with my interests, me and my fellow Grand Prize Winners finally had a face and voice reveal and we were also chatting in Telegram during the talk. On the last day of the talk, there was a section for volunteered winners to make a speech. It had been a rather sad part of the talk, as it felt like we were “parting ways” (and I guess it reminded us again that we should’ve been speaking in an air-conditioned, Google hall or something).

This wraps up the whole Google Code-In business. It had been fun and sad at the same time, but I don’t regret being a part of it. After all, the contest had officially ended on January 2020 (which means, this is the last Google Code-In contest), and I am blessed to be announced as a winner even if it didn’t go as I imagined it.

Besides, there are other ways to go to Google 😉

Music, ramblings

Music: The Part of Me that Keeps Me Sane

Posted on May 26, 2020 by Andrea Gonzales

There is always a time when I don’t feel like coding. Those are the times I don’t understand a single line of code on my console. The language in my computer screen feels like a stranger. I get distracted easily, and there’s this longing to get as far away from my computer as possible. It’s a time where coding doesn’t make any sense.

This is also the time where music comes in. I would feel a sense of longing to sit on my piano, and to play the songs on my sheet music collections. I would also pop in my earphones and scroll through YouTube to listen to classical, Celtic, or modern music (depending on my mood). It’s a time where my musical side “awakens”.

After spending a huge amount of time (and days) playing my piano and doing music-related stuff, I will soon come to a point where I’ll lose my interest on those musical notes, and longed to see my black IDE, with its colorful lines of codes. I wouldn’t know what songs to play and to listen to. It will be the time where I want to code again.

And the cycle goes on.

I guess liking both programming and music is perfect. They “balance” each other. While programming exercises my brain and helps me become more analytical, music gives me rest and keeps me sane from the ever-overwhelming lines of codes. Although I chose programming as the main career path to take, I can never leave my love for music behind.

Music also keeps me from burning out my passion for programming. I found that I can easily think of solutions to problems in my code after playing my piano. It makes me feel refreshed, and it “de-clutters” my mind, thus giving it space for new ideas and solutions. Music doesn’t take my attention away from programming; rather, it brings back my interest and love for it.

I may focus more on harnessing my programming skills and knowledge, but somehow, I still need a moment to stop, chill, and play the piano. I’m lucky to have these two interests as a part of me, and it’s hard for me to imagine my life without both of it.

Well, I better stand up and head over to my piano, I’ve been in my computer for too long! 😉

Competitions, Programming, ramblings

How Coronavirus Stole My Trip to Google HQ

Posted on April 23, 2020April 24, 2020 by Andrea Gonzales

On my previous post, I shared my Google Code-in experience, and the thrill of finally being chosen as one of the Grand Prize Winners for GCI 2019. Each Grand Prize Winner are granted an all-expense four-day trip to Google Headquarters in San Francisco, California USA.

Well, that was before coronavirus became a thing.

Worst than Losing

My father is always listening to news about the virus, and how it is rapidly spreading. He always told me that he’s got a feeling that my trip might be cancelled, as some major events are already getting called off (Google I/O, Facebook F8, Apple WWDC, etc.). Meanwhile, my mom and I always look at the positive side and often dismissed that thought. Postponed might be more possible, but cancelled, meh.

And that’s where I was wrong.

Almost a month after I was declared as a Grand Prize Winner, I received an email from Google saying that they have cancelled the GCI trip. You read it right, cancelled. Not even postponed. They said that they will just provide alternative prizes. It didn’t sink at me first, and went through my day as normal as possible ( even though I couldn’t focus on some of the things I was doing ) but at night time, I cried a lot. I have expected something so much, and for it to vanish, is truly upsetting. As for the alternative prizes, what could be much better than the trip?! Nothing can replace the experiences and new acquaintances that I was supposed to have. Another down fact is that Grand Prize Winners can no longer participate to win. So, I no longer have a chance for GCI 2020.

For the next 5 days, I tried to act normal during the day, trying hard not to think about my loss. I hated it when night comes, as that’s when my mind becomes idle and welcomes negative thoughts. I started regretting reading through previous winner’s blogs, as it only reminds me of the experiences I won’t have. I was so, so disappointed.

Not that I didn’t do anything else to try to get my trip back. I got in touch with my fellow GCI 2019 winners through Telegram, and we all decided to write a letter to Google, asking them to postpone the trip to whatever month or year they want, just not cancel it. Well that didn’t work either. I understand that Google is taking precautionary steps to prevent the spread of the disease, and that it’s not their fault, but that doesn’t stop me (and my fellow Grand Prize Winners) from being upset again.

Grand Prize Winners in a nutshell. Image Source: Memedroid

So much for being a Grand Prize Winner.

Acceptance and Lessons Learned

After almost a week of self-pitying for my misfortune, I came to realize that there’s no more point hoping that I will get back my trip. It’s gone. . . and whining won’t help me. Once I accepted this truth, then the moving on process takes place. I became more comfortable joking about the GCI trip, plotting ways to go to Google Headquarters for the next GCI year (though impossible). I focused on my family and upcoming exams (which wasn’t cancelled until the next week). Although I still feel sad, I know that there is nothing else I can do.

Winning the Grand Prize for Google Code-in to go to Google HQ was what I always dreamed of, ever since I heard of this competition. However (and probably because of a great reason), it was not what I had imagined. Although I didn’t get to step on Californian land, everything might turn out worse if I went there and contracted the virus. I might survive, but the contagious nature of the virus is just too much to risk.

The cancellation of my trip also made me realize that I’ve focused too much on my own plans. I didn’t take the virus and what’s happening around me seriously, as I thought it won’t affect me. I focused more on myself, and my trip. Now that it’s gone, my mind is now open to reality. A lot of people are suffering, whether because they lost their jobs, contracted the virus, or are dying. To continue thinking about what I lost is almost like an insult to those people who lost a lot of things because of this virus. In fact, I haven’t lost everything. I still have alternative prizes, and although it will never replace the trip, it’s better than nothing.

One more thing I learned from this experience is that, no matter how much you dream, hope, prayed and work hard for something you really, really wanted, in the end, it’s always God who has the final say in everything. I have prayed, each night to Him and specifically asked Him to grant me this opportunity. He did answer my prayer, just in a way that I never imagined. I may not know the reason why this has to happen, but I trust that He’s got better plans for me, and that the best is yet to come.

See you in another time, perhaps? Image source: Swim Creative

Competitions, Programming, ramblings

My Google Code-In 2019 Experience and The Joys of Becoming a Grand Prize Winner

Posted on March 28, 2020April 24, 2020 by Andrea Gonzales

Google Code-in ( GCI ) is an annual programming competition that introduces teenagers ages 13-17yrs old to the field of Open Source through coding, research, quality assurance, or design tasks for an organization of their choice. By the end of the competition, each open source organization will choose two students as Grand Prize Winners, who will be granted an all-expense four-day trip to Google Headquarters in San Francisco, California USA.

The 10th Year Anniversary of GCI was a blast! Image source: Google Open Source Blog

My Brief History with GCI

This was my 3rd year joining this competition and is probably one of the most memorable. I first joined GCI back in 2017, and have chosen Catrobat as the organization which I will contribute to. Wanting to win the contest on the first shot was I think a bad idea for me as it became stressful and no longer enjoyable. I then changed my mind set, that although I still want to win this competition, I want to learn something new and enjoy what I’m doing. This time, I chose Sugar Labs as my organization for GCI 2018.

There are two reasons why I chose to work with Sugar Labs. First, I liked its mission to provide educational opportunities to children through the Sugar Platform. Second, it uses Python (along with JavaScript, HTML & CSS) as it’s language for developing its apps and games ( known as Activities ). Although I’m more familiar in Python Language, my old computer couldn’t handle the environment required for Python contributions so I ended up programming in JavaScript, which I have zero experience during that time. Obviously, I didn’t win, as I only finished 9 tasks. However, I did manage to be at the Top 20 students with the most tasks completed, and that’s something for me.

To prepare myself for the next GCI, I dedicated my summer holidays to contribute to one of Sugar Labs’ product, Sugarizer, which uses JavaScript. I then became more familiar with the programming language used and more comfortable with the environment I’m working with.

Google Code-in 2019: To join, or Not to Join?

GCI 2019 started on December 3, 2019 and lasted until January 26, 2020. Weeks before the start date, I was having second thoughts whether I should sign up again or not, as the competition would clash with school review and exam schedules, and I have a goal of making it on the Dean’s List. But something tells me that I will regret it if I wouldn’t join the GCI 2019, and this thought went on for a couple of days before I finally signed up on the day the competition started. I chose Sugar Labs again as my organization, specifically working with two of its products, Sugarizer ( web implementation of Sugar ) and MusicBlocks ( visual programming language focusing on music composition ). The first few weeks wasn’t so bad as I expected, as I had a study break where I used to do more tasks and finished about 2 tasks per day during this time. It only went tougher during and after the exam week, where I only get to finish 2-4 tasks per week.

The difference with GCI 2019 and the previous years was that I’ve enjoyed it more. Some of my favourite tasks are:

1. Editing Synthesizer Length for Music Blocks

String and wind instruments should be able to sustain longer note length. Before implementing my fix, Music Blocks’ synthesizers could not fully sustain a whole note, thus creating a rather abrupt end to its sound. Although it was specified in the task description to find new synthesizers, I found it much harder, as I have to consider the license of the audio I’ll be using. Instead, I used the same synthesizer from Music Blocks, and edited it’s soundfont for it to loop a little longer.

2. Adding Automatic Re-initialization Functionality in Open Widgets

Music Blocks students expect that when they change their code, the open widget updates base on their code. However, the student must manually re-initialize the widget for it to show the changes made. I’ve implemented an automatic re-initialization of the widgets for a more user-friendly experience.

The open widget updates when code blocks are changed

3. Fixing Bugs and Regressions

Fixing bugs are one of my favorite things to do. It helps me to be more analytical and creative, as bugs are fixed in different kinds of ways. One fix I did was the regression on the search autocomplete functionality on Music Blocks, while there’s another one from Sugarizer, where the fix requires putting a whole chunk of code above another line for it to be run first.

My complete tasks list can be found here.

The competition went on for about 8 weeks. I finished 31 tasks, surpassing my previous year’s task counts. I felt proud of myself for this new achievement.

The Waiting Begins

I read somewhere from previous winner’s blog that Google privately emails the chosen Winners and Finalists before the actual public announcement on the Open Source Blog, which was on February 11. I felt very nervous. My heart jumps whenever I check my email notifications. There are lots of students who did great job in my organization, but I still hope to be chosen as a Grand Prize Winner, or as a Finalist at least. By the time January was coming to an end, I decided to stop thinking about it, and let tomorrow takes its course.

Then, on the afternoon of February 2nd, I was sitting in our dining area, designing a website for a study group. I just came from a youth gathering event, and my phone buzzed with messages from the other youth group members. I decided to take a break from my website and read through my messages, when I received an email notification. The first thing I saw was the word “Winner” in the email. It didn’t register on my mind, so I read the email’s Subject again, this time fully reading the words “Congratulations! You are a Google Code-in 2019 Grand Prize Winner!”. And because it’s not every day we get to receive an email like this from Mr. Google, I have to read the subject three times before the great news sank into me.

I quickly ran to my parent’s bedroom, told them the news, and broke down into tears. I felt so happy at that moment that my happiness turned into tears of joys. All throughout the contest, I remember visualizing every night, that I’ll win this time, visit Google, and meeting my Mentors and fellow GCI 2019 winners. This dream is becoming more real than ever!

There are lots of things to do before the trip. Lots of documents to fill up and submit for the US visa. After scheduling my visa appointment, all I have to do is wait. I’m going to use this time to look through previous winners’ blog posts and read their amazing experience in Google HQ, San Francisco. I can’t wait for my turn to take pictures on those Android statues!

P.S. : By the way, I also did manage to be on the Dean’s List 😀. I feel so blessed.

Programming, ramblings

My To Do List During Quarantine

Posted on March 21, 2020April 24, 2020 by Andrea Gonzales

Whew….It’s been 7 months since I’ve last written. With tons of assignments and exams from my new school and coding competition (more on this on the next post), I’ve forgotten about blogging.

Anyway, I’m currently in a lock-down quarantine because of the coronavirus pandemic. My school just cancelled exams and classes (even online ones), leaving me with a lot of time to do stuffs I want to do and learn. I’ve listed the 3 things I’ll be doing during the lockdown quarantine.

1. Contribute to Open Source

I’ve been introduced to open source because of the Google Code In competition, where teenagers get to have a chance to contribute to open source organizations of their choice. I’ve chosen Sugar Labs as my organization, as I like it’s mission to provide learning opportunities to children through their product, the Sugar Platform. Since then, I’ve been contributing to this organization, even if the competition was over.

One of the projects that I started for Sugarizer (a web implementation of the Sugar platform) is the Planets Activity, where users can learn more about the solar system planets and appreciate it more. It’s still a work in progress, you can see my Pull Request on GitHub here.

2. Start Learning Android

Yep, that’s right. I’m not an Android developer. I tried to learn before, but I somehow lost my interest in it (and became more of a web developer). Only when I’ve thought of projects requiring Android programming, and with a constant push from my mom, I’ve finally decided to give it another shot and continue learning this, and with the quarantine going on, I have a lot of time to do so.

Learning Android programming is a really good skill, now that people nowadays use mobile phones a lot. Plus, as I said, I have projects I couldn’t implement because of my lack of skill in Android programming.

3. Continue this Blog

Yes, I’ve got to continue this blog. I would probably write more about what happened to me during the long 7 month writing hiatus. From exams, to competitions, to a musical….a lot of things had already happened. I’m gonna have to share my experience here, and to free up some space in my head.

So yeah, these are the main things I’ll be doing. I will tell y’all how it went! 🙂

Music, Programming, ramblings

Finally starting my own blog…

Posted on August 9, 2019April 24, 2020 by Andrea Gonzales

Like what the title says, yes. At long last, I’m starting my own blog.

Actually, I’ve been planning on writing my own blog ever since I was 13 years old. Just to write about my programming/music/teenage life journey. My mom gave me the idea to name it as Notes & Codes (Notes to mean musical notes and Codes for programming) and I thought that is pretty cool, so why not start it? After all, nothing bad’s going to happen and a simple blog won’t harm anyone, right?

Well, years passed, and I’m a 16 year old girl without a single blog post.

So why didn’t I start it?

Or more to the point, why didn’t I start writing on that day, a 13 year old girl beginning her journey as a programmer and a pianist?

Because I doubt myself.

I doubt that anyone will be interested in what I have to say. There are tons of blogs out there about programming and music and the like. What would anyone gain from me, a girl who is just starting out in this path? Also, I doubt that my skills are enough for me to share, and for everyone to know. I doubt that I will ever be ready to share.

And suddenly, after 3 years, I’m writing my first blog post.

I guess it finally hit me, that writing about my experiences is essential in my chosen career path. I come to realize that although I consider my projects as “unpolished” and “not perfect” yet, sharing it will help me get feedbacks, which will help me become better. And who is to know if someone might find my blogs useful? I would never know unless I try…and start writing.

So yeah, welcome to Notes & Codes 🙂